Terrible Thing Envy

Yup indeedy!

I'm pissed off. I hate liars or more to the point just hate being lied to or manipulated more to the point.

And actually that's enough of that! Why freaking worry. I keep getting screwed around and I never learn. Anger is so draining.

Friends!

This was actually a little test post to see if I could attach photos to my blog entries. And lo and behold I can. The above picture from left to right is my "lives two minutes away friend" Chris, Me, my "not blood but close enough friend" Bonny and my "6ft star obsessed" friend Sarah. The only one missing from this picture is the Heidi creature. Of course I love all of the people who have come into my life and left a lasting impression, but this entry is about this picture. These three people are my rocks. No matter what I am going through in life they are there to support me. There isn't much they don't know about me and I love them all dearly for all they have done. It's this photo that is making me feel a little less out on a limb when I get pangs of homesickness. If it wasn't for these three amazing people I would not be where I am today and perhaps I wouldn't have got through the breakup as well as I did. Yes I am still a bit messed up about that, but it's natural to miss the company and comfort that a five year relationship brings, every now and then. I know I am fantastic and it's thanks to my friends, all of them. I may be going through a rough ride at the moment but I know that when I come through this it will be with flying colours. And I know that at the end of this tunnel, despite them being several thousands miles away on the other side of the world, I know that these three wonderful beings and a few others, will be standing there with Congratulation banners and a line of tequila shots. I owe so much to them and I just wanted to let them and the rest of the world know how much they mean to me.

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Not that I really care to admit this but I am actually still beyond fucked up about stuff. I guess I will get over it soon enough. Thought I was ok until I saw a picture and felt as though my heart was about to jump out of my mouth and straight back into the blender. I guess that's just the way the story goes.

I am going to buy myself a cheap set of skipping ropes tomorrow or this week and start skipping tone the upper arms and as of next week I am going to walk/cycle my ass down to the local pool and get myself back into a fitness regime, especially if I am unemployed. Don't get me wrong the job search and stress will continue and if I have to I will work in a fast food joint. If it pays a weekly wage then at this point I will accept about anything. It would only be a temp solution, but let's see how other things work out first. In the meantime I can at least get my body into shape. Might well stop the over thinking a bit too so it's gotta be good.


Anyway, I am bored right now, or rather am fidgety.
Amethyst