Happiness in pictures.

I love this picture. It was taken yesterday before we all went bowling. I actually got two strikes which I was well impressed with. Watching Nick bowl though was far more interesting. This is my new three's trouble picture. Happiness personified. Life is good.

Why are money matters so freaking draining? I NEED a job or for a certain ex to hand over the 3grand he freaking owes me, oh wait then I woke up. The job will happen, I have a good support network. Just need a job, then life would be even more fantastic. This course will get me a job. Positive mental attitude. Yes I can and I will mark my words.

Looking Up.

Yup indeedy things are definitely looking up. Crush = Mutual = start of relationship :-D

3 days before I turn 25.

And there is a lifting of some negative energy and an increase of Positivity. There is a simple reason for this, I just deleted a whole heap of junk from my all of my email addresses and from the pc in general. New memories. New beginnings. Just new. Thought it would be harder to do but it really wasn't. Thought I would have felt more when doing it but I didn't. The time has come where I can no longer hold onto pathetic ideals and in fact just need to proper pick myself up and dust myself. And no better way to do it than to clear out the head and close that door, I have a whole heap of other doors to open and one of which may be opened tonight.

Suitably appropriate lyrics for my mood.

It's My Life lyrics
This ain't a song for the brokenhearted
No silent prayer for the faith departed
And I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice when I shout it out loud

It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life

This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder, make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky, gotta make your own breaks

It's my life
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life

You better stand tall
When they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break
Baby, don't back down

It's my life
It's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life!

And that's really all there is to say about that!

Amethyst

Terrible Thing Envy

Yup indeedy!

I'm pissed off. I hate liars or more to the point just hate being lied to or manipulated more to the point.

And actually that's enough of that! Why freaking worry. I keep getting screwed around and I never learn. Anger is so draining.

Friends!

This was actually a little test post to see if I could attach photos to my blog entries. And lo and behold I can. The above picture from left to right is my "lives two minutes away friend" Chris, Me, my "not blood but close enough friend" Bonny and my "6ft star obsessed" friend Sarah. The only one missing from this picture is the Heidi creature. Of course I love all of the people who have come into my life and left a lasting impression, but this entry is about this picture. These three people are my rocks. No matter what I am going through in life they are there to support me. There isn't much they don't know about me and I love them all dearly for all they have done. It's this photo that is making me feel a little less out on a limb when I get pangs of homesickness. If it wasn't for these three amazing people I would not be where I am today and perhaps I wouldn't have got through the breakup as well as I did. Yes I am still a bit messed up about that, but it's natural to miss the company and comfort that a five year relationship brings, every now and then. I know I am fantastic and it's thanks to my friends, all of them. I may be going through a rough ride at the moment but I know that when I come through this it will be with flying colours. And I know that at the end of this tunnel, despite them being several thousands miles away on the other side of the world, I know that these three wonderful beings and a few others, will be standing there with Congratulation banners and a line of tequila shots. I owe so much to them and I just wanted to let them and the rest of the world know how much they mean to me.

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Not that I really care to admit this but I am actually still beyond fucked up about stuff. I guess I will get over it soon enough. Thought I was ok until I saw a picture and felt as though my heart was about to jump out of my mouth and straight back into the blender. I guess that's just the way the story goes.

I am going to buy myself a cheap set of skipping ropes tomorrow or this week and start skipping tone the upper arms and as of next week I am going to walk/cycle my ass down to the local pool and get myself back into a fitness regime, especially if I am unemployed. Don't get me wrong the job search and stress will continue and if I have to I will work in a fast food joint. If it pays a weekly wage then at this point I will accept about anything. It would only be a temp solution, but let's see how other things work out first. In the meantime I can at least get my body into shape. Might well stop the over thinking a bit too so it's gotta be good.


Anyway, I am bored right now, or rather am fidgety.
Amethyst